I am normal.

I have tried a thousand times to undo
This indecision in me,
Its like trying for the sun
Or stopping lengthening of the days,
The wide decay. 

The gap between who I am

Who i want to be.

I have tried to understand
The cards we have been dealt.
I have given my time
To people who spent it on my behalf.

I have tried to decide
The fall of the dice.
Will you hear me now,
Will you hear that words are golden,
My soul's capsized...

I'm waiting for the tide to bring me in.